Why darkness is the light you’ve been looking for..
Many years ago, I’m all about finding the light. I even use #lightchaser on all my posts. But I was also so tired of the same emotional chaos beneath my “positive” and “amazing” lifestyle. Tired of running away from myself and seeking instant gratification.
Then my life took a shift. I crashed into a very severe depression. I didn’t know if I’d live long as I had severe chest pain then. Thankfully I came out on the other side.
It was a very tough time in my life. I’m sure you have heard some people describing depression as a black hole. I promise you, it was literally that. It was so bad.
But that was the tipping point for me. It occurred to me that I asked for light so much that it strucked me hard like a lightning that it broke open my protective shield that I’ve been carrying around to keep myself safe unconsciously. Traveling the world, living the dreams many thought but I was so caged in my own safety net.
Scared to leave my toxic relationship. Scared to leave my job. Scared to leave my expat lifestyle. Scared to own my true voice. Scared to chase my lifelong dreams.
The immense pain gave me strength to own my breath and turned my dreams into reality. It changed my entire perspective of living. It definitely didn’t happen overnight. Years in fact. So much deeper healing had to take place. So much struggle and pain. But it was the greatest turn and gift of my life. My greatest pain, my darkest moment turn out to be the source of energy that lights up my new path that leads to my soul purpose.
I no longer run from discomfort or fear vulnerability.
They are my greatest teachers.
One after another I began to achieve my dreams. So much unlearning and relearning and today I am sharing everything that I have learned to others that are looking to set themselves free from the very own prison we unconsciously create. It becomes my life mission to normalise the complete human experience. That includes embracing the uncomfortable parts of ourselves just as much as the comfortable ones. We were taught that crying or anger are negative emotions. But I believe there is no negative emotions. They are all part of being human. They complete us.
For how can we know joy if there is no sadness. How can we know light, if there is no darkness.
With more consciousness on the importance of healing today, remember these - Healing is not the removal of struggles. Hard times will always be there. They come and go. That is how we grow. Healing is when you have more awareness of yourself and others. We lean more towards empathy and curiosity than being reactive and judging. It is the breaking of our patterns that are not serving our good self anymore. It is about learning to manage our emotions and triggers better.
These unlayering and shedding of our limiting beliefs are not a bed of roses. There will be more struggles and resistance. In fact, your anxiety would be triggering more as you step into unfamiliar territory. But you have to keep going. After all, good things don’t come easy right? I guarantee you that it is so rewarding! And it does gets easier.
Watch how your life unfolds. Watch how you no longer become a victim of your FEARS AND SHAME. Watch how you step more into your authentic self and live more confidently. You will feel very much more in power. You will feel so liberated that you no longer worry about the opinions of others or the need to conform to others.
Remember you are so worthy of your dreams. No one is too small or too big. Every one of your desires is for you to take. But first you do need to dive deep into the work of inner healing. Find someone that you feel at ease with to help you through this journey.
Stop watering yourself down.
You are so worthy and deserving!
Ryana x